I can’t remember the last time we said good morning. Isn’t that sad. When did we forget to say good morning to each other? When did we just stop?

It is probably the right assumption that I expect a lot from people. Perhaps too much. But if you show me you are able of being such a person; being able of such kindness and care and loyalty… why would you suddenly want to stop being capable of such qualities?

I tried to think back to a time when I last woke up for me. When I last started my day thinking, YES, this day is yours. Take it, grab it, want it, remember it, live it, love it…. It would be so easy to blame my job, but then I chose this career. It would be so easy to blame a relationship, but then I chose this man. And god I am so glad I did.

It’s just easier to not blame myself, because then I would have found the actual answer. Then I would have to actually start making some sort of change. I can’t count the endless conversations I have had with my sister telling her how I want to make a change. How I HAVE to make a change.

So why haven’t I? Why can’t I?

I need to trust in the fact that I am capable of so much more than I am allowing myself to believe. I need to wake up and remember that the only person that can fix me, is me.